Terry Speak

Sadden times

2008-05-14T12:14:00.003Z

Well its been a while yet again but considering all we are going through its surprises me how strong we can be. My husband's mom stayed with us due to her increased dementia and it finally got to the point where we couldn't take care of her needs. So we then had to find a EMI unit hopefully close so we could still visit her which in the end we did. The one thing that was shocking was how much some of the homes wanted to be paided from the family. But again seeing how much care she needed, I do understand that issue but we just did not have the funds. But the place we found was close and its a nicely run place and she is taken care of and the careers do a really great job. But the sad thing is how she refuses to accept the situation and this is not just the illness she has always been difficult to deal with the fact the world is what it is and we have to accept that. She won't. So this has had a dark effect on my husband. And its really sad to see how different my dad and his mom are acting about this illness. Dad gets confused and frustrated but understands he has this disease and accepts it. Where Keith's mom fights and argues that everyone else is wrong she is perfectly fine.

To say I am worried about this on my husband is putting it mildly, My dad just recently died and it has been another blow in my own self as well the family. The thing is that for him it was unexpected and quick. I think he understood and didn't want to live this way anymore as well as not hurting his family. For my mother-in-law I fear she would take her kids with her. So in this record I see how to love unconditional and how to destroy intensely.

getting there is certainly half the fun

2008-04-07T14:14:00.003Z

Well we are back in the saddle of doing shows and events its almost like going back to school and sharing what we have all been up to during break. Some of us only meet up at the shows so we have to remember we are there to work ! and my poor husband, Keith has now bought me a pager to contact me when I have a client. so no rest for the wicked.
Over the years I have noticed new faces with exhibitors which changes the energy of a venue. I have noticed that some of the veterans will share information the the novices and instead of seeing them as some kind of threat and I find that makes for a more rewarding time. Humans can be very territorial and that spells the difference from a well turned out show to one that we can't wait to get out of there.
All in all this year is more letting the right customers come to my stand and in having that attitude it has been a really fun time which in the end of the day is what it is all about.
take care
T

Here's to 2008

2008-01-07T19:29:00.002Z

And goodbye to 07 - it has been a year of trudging and slipping back down that slope of life. I am so glad to see the back end of that year. Although I have accomplished several goals this year. more painting and pushing out my art works. The frustration seeing my father leaving bits of his memory into some black hole as well my mother-in-law who studied all her life and really worked at her healing also being struck down. She now is in care and it is so disheartening that maybe going like my sister suddenly is more of a blessing than I first realized.
So on to the frontier of the New Year but not so much about making promises that won't come to fruition but to accept what I can accomplish and yet still try each day - to watch a little less TV, to not be bothered about dishes and to make sure at the end of each day I do tell my husband how much I value him.
so come on 08 - I am ready for ye....
T

time slip again

2007-12-14T12:44:00.000Z

God's truth what has happen to some quality time with the blog, and it was going so well, Ah there is the rub. Like New Years resolution sure I will eat healthy, get more exercise, try and be a caring person but it all goes south. Booger.
As it happens we certainly have dealt with a lot of changes in our family, my father is in the late stages of Alzheimer's yet some of the things he does is quite funny in a sort of sad way like cleaning his toes with his electric toothbrush but my husband thinks that is very efficient in some ways. I hope we can continue to see the funny sides of this effect as now we have brought his mother who also suffers from this disease as well as vascular dementia to stay with us and its certainly been an experience. She gets more difficult when its something she feels is embarrassing which I can understand but doesn't make our lives easier. Sleep has been a premium but we are in out 5th week so we are getting our breath back.
Its something we may have to face or be atleast know someone who is going through this.
How we deal with it is the task.

Time Slip ..the new Procrastination

2007-07-30T12:44:00.001Z

Sad to say that it's been awhile since I last wrote and I think its not that I have been busy with other things or my husband has been hogging the computer time (hmm) but I have come to the conclusion its not due to procrastination but a Time slip. Like when you are a kid and school has just ended and you are faced with endless summertime lying in front of you and with all the time in the world for those lazy days then bamm... out of nowhere Back to School Sales are on! How can that be ? We only just got into the summer groove. Time slip.
You know you have faced a Time slip when you use the fatal sentence 'My it just seems we only just finished with winter and here it is again' or ' Where does the time go?' Time slip.
These can happen anytime and any place with any task be it ones we wish to avoid or enjoy so there is no rhyme or reason for the Time slip to occur they just do. So just with this blog I felt I had just finished my last one only recently and there it was in printed proof that months have gone by!
So now I am working on all the storehouse of information I have gleamed these pass months and Time slip is the only coherent reason why it has taken Keith all of 8 years to finish the bedroom closet doors. TIME SLIP. So now anything that for whatever reason has not been started, worked on or finished can be named a Time slip and I am sticking to it.

Spring time in UK

2007-04-25T11:39:00.000Z

Hi all,

Its sometimes seems winter is here to stay and the trees will never get leaves again. I always try to notice when the buds are sprouting but this time Spring just happened over night, it may have been because we worked the last two weekends with glorious warm and sunny days. I came home and everything is in bloom. It does seem that people's attitudes are lighter also and more productive.
I am getting alot of positive feedback on my art and have sold another painting so I am also in the pink as my blog. I have to say things are plodding along and some of the shows are slowing down so another avenue needs to be looked into. I do enjoy the art and the soul paintings are coming along with no real plan or similar setup. Makes it more fascinating to each of the clients and the remarks have been quite interesting. I do hope this work grows from strength to strength and looking forward to the next level of my own personal development.

Terry

working on the family issues

2007-04-03T13:23:00.000Z

Its been an interesting time with the family and how the dynamics are a hopping. I think we do as Jessie put it don't know how to address sorrow like its something catching and yet it seems to be a time for truth to come to the forefront. My family is very strong and sometimes very stubborn which can be a good thing when channelled correctly and very very bad when not. I read about when in a crises you might need to suppress the grief and this energy, as with any type of feeling needs to flow. Stopping grief can then become translated into energy as a negative lashing out in pain without a clue why the need to hurt someone else is the only course of action. All grief is as one psychologist stated is angry turned inward. I seen that in myself as well as with several family members, and its not a nice place to be. So for those family members who have chosen a path of lashing incoherently I will try to understand and forgive the torrent of abuse because we aren't taught how to handle these energies. Try to remember the love in our family and the healing process can then be started.
Much love to all with abit of understanding.
Theresa

Death in the family

2007-03-31T09:23:00.000Z

Well, I have received news that my sister died on Sunday, she was having some back surgery and was recovering then she was gone.
I am not able to fly over to the States due to the time element, in the US we get them buried in less than three days but over here in Britian it takes over a week and in one case a friend finally had their ceremony a month later.
I certainly had not expected it since she was only 48, quite young indeed, she was dealing with health issues but had a strong heart. We lost touch for quite a few years as families do when they are in different countries and getting on with their daily lives, we just forget to stop and make attempts to contact one another. But I wondered if we used it up in our youths, growing up we were always a tight family clan and we girls (four) did alot of running around and beinging in each others pockets maybe that was why we distanced ourselves as adults.
I also noticed things about death seem to be more prevelant, tv movies, books, news ( well news does always count they always focus on death) talk shows. Seems sometimes its always around you but only when your focus changes do you suddenly notice it. Like when we put the box ontop of the car suddenly we noticed every car had a box. Or as I like to think sometimes it is a sign.
So Claudia I regret not touching base with you but know that with your legacy of lovely children Eric, Alyssa, Courtney, the twins Michael & Christine and your granddaughter Eva
your spark will carry on. I thank you for being my sister as well .
Much love
Theresa

Back from beyond

2007-03-22T10:56:00.000Z

Hello and welcome its nearly time to go on another challenging show, the fun never stops. I have been looking into some new venues and contacting the promoters this week. It's always a hit or miss situation to do a show and can I make the cost of the table. Some times the school breaks will seriously effect the numbers or in this case last Sunday Mother's Day which is strange in my thinking - to take mom out to an event she enjoy- but maybe people only to take their mom's out for a Sunday lunch over here and I did notice there were alot more cops on the road ticketing those frazzled family members. Quite a few in fact.
I got quite a few soul paintings done that were very interesting and connected well with the clients. They all had different styles in the images which I would have loved to have a copy of so now I need to bring the scanner or camera. Even the aura drawings are developing farther than the first ones. I did have an epitaph about energies, the more I can challenged myself to do my best and less concern about what others are getting up to then my energies won't be wasted. Now to put that into practice for our next show. Stay toon!

On the Road again

2007-03-16T08:57:00.000Z

Today we are getting ready for a show, not a stage and screen type although sometimes it can feel like a comedy act but a Mind, Body and Spirit event. We travel all over England and Wales and over the years have met a lot of interesting wonderful people and also lets not forget the disturbing and irritating ones too. I am saying We not in the royal statement but with my husband and partner Keith, there is more about him on his site keith-speak.com
who works from an esoteric scientist type of guy. He amazes me with ideas and sees beyond sometimes the mundane crap of life. Where I get things really stuck in my craw like Space. Space is an interesting concept for me - what are the boundaries and layouts - I find when we go to shows there are markers or lines drawn out for our territory and it's always fascinating how people either stay within their markers scrupulously (never taking more than they bought) to those that suddenly you find their equipment, table, even themselves within your Space. Amazing that oblivious mindset which is me, me, me not aware of anyone else but me. Odd considering a supposedly Spiritual set of people

Being an Ohioian in Penmaenmawr

2007-03-15T15:19:00.000Z

Well ,I have to say that even back in Ohio most people had trouble understanding me. I reverse words, numbers and dates so coming to a country that uses the day, month, years works for me. I have been working over here for about 8 plus years but people still think I sound like I just got off the boat from Ohio. I know you can't take a boat from Ohio but the British only know about New York, Las Vegas and Florida so when they ask where I am from ( I sound to their ears 'Canadian' which is fine with me I don't have land issues) they give me a blank look in their eyes so now I say around the Great Lakes -sounds more exotic then if they understand where that is then I say Ohio.

Beginning

2007-03-15T15:01:00.000Z

Hi everyone!
Thanks for dropping by, my name is Theresa but most people call me Terry. I now live in Wales but originate from Ohio. The transision from American English to British English, coupled with my own way of expressing myself led to the expression Terry Speak!